Awake

I realized, time goes and people change. I no blame anyone and myself, the intention already different so I will just let go everything. For me, happiness is family and friends around and happy being together to have fun together. What I want just simple :) I don't like to talk those nonsense to people, people got eyes to see the truth. I don't like to distort the story, I believe people who know me know my personality will know. I heard and see for what I saw, not from what people saying. sometimes I tried my best but doesn't make sense, is fine at least I tried and I did sincere to pursuit what I want even I failed. I tried to console myself and denial the truth, perhaps I should awake. One day, everything will be discover because we really do nOthing.

heartbreaking

obviously, i never do wrong thing! why and why you know the problem is there and you never find the solution in the relationship? why? why never stand on my side and thinking my thought? why i must be tolerant for all of this? why?

not enough? this not the first time, not the second time.. you make me feel heartbreaking! honestly, your action already indicate who is important for you and what is your mind thought... you never stand on my side from the beginning until now

Desire

Tell you ppl, something raising up my memory!! After form 1, my family no lOnger celebrate my birthday with me and the reason is because they think I grow up already :( i so envy friends around who can always have family day, sitting in front of a round table and chit chatting, this is kind of happiness for me! Yea, I got birthday present from mommy every year and the present she gave must be very valuable but this not what I want! I tell myself, this year I want to request mom to bring me out for dinner, to cut and blow cake with me. All I want is a warm atmosphefa!! I understand sometime it's kinda hard for my family to celebrate as I'm from family business, the business operated 24/7 :((( I no lacking of anything, cupboard full of clothes,bags, accessories, and even not enuf space for clothes and shoes, mommy shop can add shoe rak and cupboard for me :( had girl night talk with my roommate yesterday, I got a lot of brand new toys when I was small, but my mother don't have time to company me because of the family business again!! My happy childhood was the moment my babysitter bring me up due to my parents are busy for the business. I know life isnt 100% perfect but I hope the time I can spend with my parents become frequent. You don't know the feeling of playing toys and looking friends had their parents company! Yalo, sometimes I desire for having dinner with family, the relationship keep closer and I non need material stuff! Bags, shoes and all, I hope to exchange all of this to the time I can spending with you all! I don't think so how important a branded means for a person, some ppl say you will not go for vincci after purchase lv, this is very wrong mind!! You like a bag because it's branded you don't like the bag because it's from pasar malam, this show what??
My mom had branded and pasar mln bag, she likes all the bags!! She used to told me money isn't important, we should appreciate life and life happy. She realized after life 40 years And she told me one day you will realized those is just typically and no different. Buy whatever you like but not because ppl have or the brand. Ya, my mom tells me the theory but since I study apart, time together really lessor. Anyhow, really thanks to my friends for company me for me birthday every year!! I never blame my parents because I understand their situation but I hope myself able to company my own kids n family in future, this is super precious!!! Thanks to all friends who love me, you guys complete my life :)

愚蠢

我很愚蠢，
我讨厌我

CNY

CNY is a happy festival because is time for me and my cousins them to reunion and a very nice occasion for me and my aunt & uncles them to stay together to chit chatting, playing mahjong, sing and cooking together :) i am the eldest sister among my cousins them, very happy to see they are becoming pretty and growing up a lot when every year reunion :) hope for next sing K session in this CNY, they are so exciting when singing their favorite song although i can't follow their pace as my generation is about fish leong and jolin tsui..LOL!!

CNY raising up my memory to you, erge :) this year our house is going to add a new family member - my sis in law and i know your blesses to us never ever away!! i am so missing you, sometimes i can just thinking you in my bottom heart and i know you are always with me this little mei mei!!!

i will try best in studies and loving ppl around me :) this is what i promised :)

Generous heart

hello :) today, i would like to share something with you guys which i realized and learned from this!!

"We must always reflect upon our own mistakes at a quite time.We must not gossip while chatting with friends."

One who constantly looks down on others reveals his lack of moral cultivation, do you agree? if you like to looks down peoples around and spread to friends around, this reveals how personality you are :) i'm glad that i don't have this kind of friends!! people can judge a person from what his or her attitude has without any words from you, people got eyes to see. Stop gossiping pls, war world sometimes incurring because of this kind of gossip people!! do you really happy after you realized people around started to talked or dislike the people? *wondering*



" We will be miserable if we always harbor the thought of "So and so are no good to me". If we change the thinking to " I want to thank so and so",we will be very happy"

yaya, i usually thinking of being nice to people because loving people around is a kind of happiness :) sometimes even suffering myself from where is the starting point of how the relationship going worst. Today, i will let go with the past :)and i want to thanks so and so to many peoples, you guys are just so nice to me :) is my pleasure!!

" It is better to have a generous heart than a spacious dwelling."


There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness :) alright, i will still loving people around me because i shouldn't giving up myself due to insignificant people in life :)

that's all :)

the world is wonderful after you learned to be appreciating even a very single action from other, this is kind of happiness :)

2012 new year

now is 7.48pm, the last day of year 2011 :) i shall be happy for welcoming the coming of year 2012 yet very bad recently my uni around you can see people studying and the topics are just exam,tips and zzz... yaya, now is exam period in my uni!

i just sat my 1st paper this morning, i bitten down by myself not the questions. careless and my own problem :( i had let goes all of the unhappy stuffs after getting consoled and a clam mind myself, i can't do anything for it but this is a lesson to me! this is a repentant in my uni life as i can scored but i fail to do :)

i taken and let it go! do you people believe in karma's rule? i truly believe it! somethings thing happened for a reason :) my aunt asked me what is my new year resolution for 2012, i replied her :" yalo hor, 2012 coming! erm... i hope people around me happy, myself can do well in studies and last one is my relationship lasting forever! this is usually what i hope for in life, unchanged until one day i graduate from uni life, perhaps earns uncountable money! weee!!

happy new year peeps!!!